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Name: M
Country: Australia
Birthday: 12/31/1970
Gender: Male
Interests: Music - all kinds (except Country & Western but I dont' hate it), reading, news & current affairs, my friends, gaming & fooling around on my pc :0)
Expertise: Many, many things ;0)
Occupation: Customer service/support
Message: message me
Member Since:
11/12/2003
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| Greetings.
Happy new year to you all. I hope that like me, 2005 will be a better year for you.
I don't have much to say right now other than be nice to each other.
For the most part, I look forward to what the future has in store.
I was one told "I can't believe I had to pay for my own Birthday dinner"
well, that's not so bad coming from the perspective of someone who didn't even get a Christmas or Birthday present.
My New Years Resolution - start thinking about myself first and not about others who really don't appreciate my attention.
All the very best to all of you. May you experience nothing other than happiness and joy.
Over and out.
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| Greetings.
When someone has lied to you; and more than once, do you ever believe anything they say again?
I wonder.
End transmission.
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| Greetings.
I always find it amazing how fast things can change.
Time moves regardless wether we participate or not.
The last three weeks of my life have been some of the most turbulent
that I can remember. This doesn't mean they are the worst as I've
probably erased the worst from my mind.. ;0)
I'm not going to comment on how I feel today, I'm still trying to work
it out. On the whole, strength is winning over adversity.
Tonight I calculated it's been seven years since I've felt this
way. Again; as stated previously - the ups come with the
downs. Why I am doubting myself and giving my energy to something
that just absorbs it and doesn't reciprocate I don't know. I
should know better.
Some people think that they know everything.
Some people think they know more than you do.
Some people have attitudes that you don't agree with.
What I cannot abide is people who cannot see beyond their own self
absorbed interests. On this note, I do note claim to be
perfect. Not even close. It is a result of my existance on
the face of the God forsaken planet for the last 34 and eleven months
that I make these statements.
Age doesn't equal maturity.
An opinion of yourself or others doesn't equal intelligence.
Think about it.
Think about something else.
Think about something other than yourself. It's quite a good thing to do.
End transmission.
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| Well, this morning didn't go well.
I decided to go for a walk down to the park to clear my head.
This was quite lovely as I was able to watch the Harbour Bridge come
slowly into view as the night sky gradually lightened. A sunrise
is a particularly special thing in this life I think. Apart from
the fact that it a most beautiful spectacle, it's a reminder that
another day is on it's way. How we choose to live that day is up
to us.
I'm going to make another effort to make this day a good one.
They haven't been as frequent as I'd like of late. Of course,
I've only got myself to blame for that. I just wish I could put a
control device on my emotions sometimes.
Well, I guess the upside is that I got to breathe fresh sea air; this
will hopefully help me sleep... Something that I haven't been
getting enough of lately.
End Transmission
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| Well, it's taken me a long time to get here, I'm still not sure that
this is a good thing or not. But like they say, if you can't beat
them; join them.
So - I am.
It's not going to be easy trying to describe or even explain what's
going on in my head right now. I think there's two things that I
can publish here now, that at least give some insight:
1. The Human mind is capable of the most amazing things. It
can cause the most terrible pain; and it can create the most beautiful
joy. How we all exist and interpret the multitute of variance
within these extremes of emotion is what I suppose makes us
Human. Sometimes I wish I didn't have to experience the
pain. It's then that I have to remind myself that without the
pain I wouldn't know what happiness is. Welcome to the
rollercoaster of life - most graciously provided by the gift of
concious thought and emotion. We apologise for any invonvenience
caused.
2. This is a direct quote: "Wednesday, November 12, 2003 Hi
Cha_Cha_Heels! It's been 353 days since you joined Xanga..." I
joined Xanga to respond to someone who said "I hate my life".
This statement ended with the words along the lines of "The only
thing I don't hate is knowing that there's someone who cares for
me". Well, in the nature of things coming 360 degrees, I'm now
the one who hates their life. Unfortunately now, there's nobody
who cares for me.
I don't intend this log to be a facility to feel sorry for
myself. I suppose it will give me an opportunity to record how I
feel and the flux of emotions that are streaming through my mind at any
given moment. It may also show to others that if they have
similar thoughts then they're not the only ones.. :0)
Unlike others that I know, I also don't intend to insult, demean,
embarass or humiliate anyone with negative comments. I think that
you can't cause any greater pain to anyone by doing this. It's
the most unsettling thing to have to read about yourself in the third
person.
End Transmission.
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